For the longest time, I hated the color pink. I was a tom-boy as a child, I wanted to dress like my brother and have nothing to do with being a girl. Let me explain.
It all started when I started seeing my boyfriend. It started with small things, I all of a sudden wanted to wear a lot of blush (no blush blindness yet), it literally made me feel better. Then I started wearing pink shirts or wanting more jewelry and cutsie things. Then the Pink. It’s like a tsunami of pink just invaded my life. Everything vaguely pink catched my eyes and I wanted everything turned in that color. My mouse? Pink. My phone? Pink. My pajamas? Pink. My stanley? Pink. Everything Pink.
I did some research and it seems like a lot of women had or is having this experience. Most people connect it to healing, reconnecting to that side of you that you pushed away for a long time. Maybe that is why I was such a tom-boy? Don’t know, what I know is that I wanted to be like my brother, the person I respect the most.
My parents never pushed it on to me, my mom said I was born hating dresses and girly things, and now she is also susprised I like pink and “never would hvae thought I would love it this much” but is embracing it well, same as she embraced me as a tom-boy. She now buys me anything pink and keeps an eye on things.
But why this sudden change? I must think that is because of my boyfriend and the healing he has given me. I think that for the longest time I only met guys that would be submissive or at least would not tap into their full masculity and that role went to me. I was really bossy in my past relationships and when I met my boyfriend I had to change that, not in a “he is the boss” but more in “he is man enough for the both of us”. I think this dynamic have given me the liberty to be my girly self.
I am still bossy don’t get me wrong (he loves it), but I know I have someone next to me that can take care of things, that there is not just me in the relationship caring. I love this side of me. I feel it makes my confidence grow every day.
Eternally gratefull for this change. Love Pink.
Did I make myself clear?